സമയം!

മുംബൈ മഹാനഗരം.. വി ടി സ്റ്റേഷന്റെ മുന്നിൽ ഞാൻ ഇങ്ങനെ നില്ക്കാ.. വണ്ടികളും മനുഷ്യന്മാരും ചീറി പായുന്നു.. എന്തിനു.. ഒന്ന് കണ്ണടച്ച് തുറന്നാൽ ദിവസം കഴിഞ്ഞു.. എല്ലാത്തിനും ഇവിടെ ഭയങ്കര വേഗത.. ആർക്കും ആരെയും നോക്കാനോ ഒന്ന് ചിരിക്കാനോ സമയം ഇല്ല.. സമയം.. അതാണ് ഇവിടെ എല്ലാവര്ക്കും ഇല്ലാത്തതു.. അതോ ഇനി ഇല്ല എന്ന് നടിക്കുക ആണോ! ആ! എനിക്കറിയില്ല..

കടത്തിണ്ണയിൽ നാട്ടുവർത്തമാനം പറഞ്ഞു സമയത്തെ കൊന്നത് ഓർക്കുമ്പോൾ ചിരി വരുന്നു.. അന്ന് കൂട്ടുകാരോടൊപ്പം ഇരുന്നു, തിടുക്കത്തിൽ പോണ സൈക്കിളെകാരനോട് വായുഗുളിക വാങ്ങിക്കാൻ പോവാണോ എന്ന് ചോദിച്ചത് ദേ ഇന്നലെ കഴിഞ്ഞ പോലെ!!

എല്ലാവരും ഓരോ വഴിക്കു! സതീശൻ അങ്ങ് എറണാകുളത്തു.. ഉണ്ണി അവന്റെ അച്ഛന്റെ തയ്യൽ കടയിൽ അങ്ങ് കൂടി.. സുബൈർ മലപ്പുറത്ത് തുണി കച്ചവടം.. ഞാൻ ഇത്തിരി പഠിച്ചു പോയി എന്ന കുറ്റത്താൽ ഇങ്ങു മുംബൈയിൽ.. താല്പര്യം ഉണ്ടായിട്ടൊന്നുമല്ല. വീട്ടുകാർ നിർബന്ധിച്ചു.. ഇങ്ങു പോന്നു.. ഒരു പ്രൈവറ്റ് കമ്പനിയിൽ അക്കൗണ്ടന്റ്.. എല്ലാ ചെലവും കഴിഞ്ഞു ഒരു അയ്യായിരം രൂപ അച്ഛന് അയച്ചു കൊടുക്കാറുണ്ട്.. ഞാൻ പിന്നെ പണ്ടേ സേവ് ചെയ്യാറില്ല.

ദിവസങ്ങൾ ഇങ്ങനെ പോവാ. ഇവിടെ വന്നിട്ട് ഇപ്പൊ എന്ത് ഉണ്ടായി എന്ന് ചോദിച്ചാൽ സത്യം പറയാലോ! ഒന്നും ഉണ്ടായില്ല. പിന്നെ ഈ നാട്ടുകാരോടോപ്പും ഞാനുo സമയത്തിന്നെ കയ്യിൽ മുറുക്കെ പിടിച്ചു ഇങ്ങനെ നടക്കും. അല്ല ഓടും!! നാടോടുമ്പോൾ നടുവേ ഓടണം എന്നാണല്ലോ!!

Old age home...!

Clock ticked 10.

He passed an ordering look..

The old lady lifted the bag.

Hefty of clothes of memories,

Packed of books of lullabies.

She was deserted..

With no ray of hope left in her!!

She stepped down..

The heavy heart was still beating!

 

***

The luxury car entered the premises.

She could see many faces,

weeping within..

They welcomed her with empathy,

One more member to the family!

***

He counted the currency!

Lakhs and some!

She sighed, the price for the trade!!

***

He signed the papers, and for one last time,

Turned towards her to waive goodbye!

Her wrinkled arms held his!

***

He felt the same warmth he had,

Everytime when she caressed him,

Everytime when she cuddled him,

Everytime when she nestled him!

***

He took off his hands from hers.

Walked down the steps,

 

With a thud in his heart!!

 

To all the Love sicks!!!!

This time, the topic is quite light! I would better say that it is not a fiction! This write up is actually inspired from a discussion which developed a couple of days back! My friend, who is also working in the same organisation, but located in a different place has asked me about something. He has a crush on his colleague.. All he wanted to know was that how does he need to proceed with it!!! I appreciate the fact that he might have thought am the right person to consult as I have been through a relationship which further developed to a happily ever after wedlock!!

He had a handful of questions in his mind:
1) Do I need to tell her that I have a crush on her?
2) Do I need to express whatever comes in my mind?
3) What if our friendship breaks if I open up?
4) Does she be having a feeling for me at all?
5) How do I know that this is a time pass or serious feeling??
Blah blah blah!!!!
And the questions just took off their wings through the instant messenger that we have!
For a fraction of second, I got totally blank! Will I be able to answer these questions to my friend?
Then, my mind started regaining the stability and the words just flew over the messenger back!
Instead of telling him the answers for the questions that he asked, I just said whatever came into my mind! Am scribbling it down!
#First of all, don’t get carried away by the thought that you have a crush on someone!!
#Sit back and realise whether the feeling is just an infatuation developed out of physical attraction or is there anything beyond that!!
#Be yourself!! You heard me right!! Don’t try to pretend like someone whom you have never thought of, in a hurry to impress the other!!
#Don’t complicate the relationship.. Instead give a space for the other to interact with you and gain an understanding of who you are to them!!
#Don’t get over excited and make the other feel that you are totally crazy for them!!
#Let the magic happen on its own! Don’t attach pacemaker to your feelings and make it end up in a disaster!!
#Stay happy and positive.. Let the positive vibes from you embrace the other and trigger the feeling on them!
#If at all it is not working, just let it go!!!! Don’t cry over the spoilt milk!!! You are wasting your life for someone who is never bothered about it at all!!
#If it works out, stay cool and relaxed.. Let the relationship blossom taking its own time and let it spread the fragrance of love!!!
Though I am not an expert on this matter, I have just said him the things which I believe to be true!!
Hope this would help some of my stranger friends to some extent to keep up their love spirits high!!

The 11:11 Mystery!!

At times, some visual or circumstance would prompt you to interpret a matter which you thought to be usual to be unusual.. And it may initiate a fleet of thoughts popping up within..which will in turn, exert a soothing pressure to unlock the mystery!

You may feel that am starting to pen down a fiction! Or a short story! Absolutely not!

This is what I have within me right now! Yes, the thoughts are afresh!!

Yesterday, I happened to watch a Malayalam movie, 32aam Adhyaayam, 23aam Vaakyam! There is nothing else in the film which is catchy other than the thought process which it shoots regarding the mystery associated with numbers! Inspired from write ups, the script has been developed pointing out the repetitive haunting of Number 23 of the lead actor.. and the story progresses!!

At a point of time, when the narrative mentioned about numbers and their connectivity, and the happenings followed, something struck my mind in a flash of second!!

Yes!! Am talking about the number/time “11:11” !!!

For past 4-5 years, there have been many instances where I have got this feeling that this number has something to connect to me!! What made me feel so was whenever I felt like seeing the watch or mobile phone to see the time, I could repetitively see the numbers 11:11!! Am not joking!! As I have already mentioned, I have not taken it so seriously that I went behind or tried to dig it more! But, apparently, this number caught my eyes quite a lot of times, as a surprise!! The spark of mystery was inside me for such a long period!!

After watching this movie, it struck my mind with a bang that I could not resist myself from doing a petty research on it! Afterall, I wanted to know whether something exists at all about this number pattern! Or is it just happening with me alone??

When I typed 11:11 in Google, hundreds and hundreds of links appeared!!

I would like to replicate some of the words which grabbed my attention!

11:11 (numerology)

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Numerologists believe that events linked to the time 11:11 appear more often than can be explained by chance or coincidence.^[1] This belief is related to the concept of synchronicity. Some authors claim that seeing 11:11 on a clock is an auspicious sign.^{[citation needed]} Others claim that 11:11 signals a spirit presence.^[2][3] The belief that the time 11:11 has mystical powers has been adopted by believers in New Age philosophies.^[4] However, skeptics say that Uri Geller's examples of 11:11 phenomena in world events are examples of post-hoc reasoning^[5] and confirmation bias

11:11 – Is it Happening to You?

Our Spirit Guides, angels, or higher selves like to speak to us through various methods, such as playing a recurring song on the radio that may have special significance, answering a prayer, flipping to a certain page in a book we’re reading, or even directing our attention to repeating numbers on a clock or sign, such as 11:11. At first, this occurrence might seem like a silly coincidence, but by looking further into it, you will find that it has a powerful spiritual message hidden within.

According to Doreen Virtue, a well-known angel therapist and psychic medium between the spirit world and human world, seeing repeating numbers, especially 11:11, means you should focus on keeping your thoughts positive, because your desires will manifest instantly into form. Put all your attention on what you desire instead of what you fear, and your angels will continue to reward you.

According to the Mayan Calendar, the turning of ages began on December 21, 2012 at 11:11, marking a New Age on our planet – a literal shift in consciousness from the Dark Age to the Golden Age. Another interesting thing about 11:11 is that the numbers add up to four, which is the number for transformation and the dissolving of the ego. Many healers and spiritual leaders on Earth interpret 11:11 to mean that the ascended masters have come back to the planet to aid us in this grand healing and help bring Earth back into alignment once again.

The above excerpts are only few of thousand write ups which speak about positivity, light workers, spiritual brain washing, star seeds and so on….

Ultimately, I have a contentment that something which has been a big interrogation in my inner mind is something which is happening with millions of people in this world!!! Am not all alone!! And, more or less, it speaks about positivity!!!

So, am feeling virtuous and high! I will keep smiling whenever I see the magic number again!!

The 11:11…..!!!